rethinking

enjoy the vacation... I wish you all a happy non denominational holiday and perhaps an oasis of sorts.

is your brain well furnished?

There was a trip to the mall today to possibly retrieve some presents... I had 2 in mind, and I knew exactly where to find them and everything, but of course there was nothing. I also had no patience to browse because there were people everywhere and they were getting in my way like crazy.

The camera was with me and I was going to capture some sort of epic moment or a beautiful thing, but then I was reminded what a crappy town R-Hill really is. I was astounded by how ugly it is, especially when covered in snow. I think my favourite thing about the hill is when you go up the hill (damn straight, we actually have a hill) and stand in the library parking lot (yeah, that's the reward at the top of the hill) and on a clear day you can see Toronto and the CN Tower is just there.

That's also why there is no photograph accompanying this posting... I also thought I'd give you a break.

freedom and winter trees

For some reason I thought I had some rants together for a post, but alas I didn't.
What else can I offer to post? That's a good question. I haven't read anything that is particularly worth passing on.

Neil Young - Love is a rose.

Ok right now it is T-2 hours from final exam.. or so. I can't wait to get this over with...bye bye syntax.

I also cannot wait to leave what has become the wretched hell hole of London..because everyone is gone and the people that are left live a bus ride or a long walk away.

Hopefully within the next week I'll have something nice and long and terrible to read. Some editor conversations need to be had and finished. And then none of you will want to talk to me after.

Who wants to come save me? c'mooon. I know you do. I don't really hate being alone, it's not that at all, it's that I've been in solitary confinement since Saturday pretty much, there was someone else here but we were both locked away studying. I want to have a full conversation with someone...and it's been a ridiculous last few days which I don't want to get into, but the words, "damn I can't believe that happened" come to mind and just a crap load of pure frustration.
Milkshake anyone?

draw me a picture of what you see

"Your desk is a random assortment of items"
"yeah there's a lot of shit on my table"

"I'm an orphan, my parents died in a car wreck, let's cuddle"

some of the many terrible things you just might here around here.

I wrote one exam already and I had an assignment for that class handed back to me with a thumbs up, here is what part of it looked like.
































(ok I didn't collect the data, I just annotated the map, that's the south-west quarter of France circa 1900)
I nailed that assignment, you have no idea, it's even on the fridge. It didn't matter that I messed up a good part of that exam, that assignment made my day.

Less school, more messed up song lists. This is my "calm the fuck down" list, as of right now, because I need it.
1. Jason Collett - Blue Sky
2. Willy Mason - It's a hard hand to hold
3. The Virgins - Fight to Survive
4. Colin Meloy - Everyday is like Sunday
5. Thanksgiving - Young
6. Wilco - Can't Stand It
7. The Eames Era - Could be Anything
8. Songs: Ohia - Coxcomb
9. The Sounds - Seven days a week
10. Porcupine Tree - Piano Lessons
11. Brighteyes - Land locked blues
12. Dandy Warhols - We used to be friends

That's all I got for now, if you'd like any of these, you know where to find me or if you have something for me to add.

the school issue

The following is an excerpt from some notes of mine, now I understand why I never learn anything:

-"l'occitant for beginners sera en français, there is no particular variety that can be taught parce qu'il y a des variétés rurales..."
Other reasons:
- I thought of another reason that I don't learn anything and I can't remember... it might be that I don't learn well by reading or that if there is a computer in front of me I am probably reading some ultra nerd article.
-Focusing comes in 10 minute bursts.
-In the past, people have been convinced that I have ADHD or dyslexia - I do get bored while writing exams

Stay in school kids and study hard because then one day you might be able to send your family emails that you arrived safely in San Francisco for some reason on someone else's dime. I say this having just received an email confirming a safe return from San Francisco and be too busy to email back explaining why you were there in the first place.

I am being forced to come to terms with the fact that I don't procrastinate. I do in that I dick around when I have homework to do and I just do my homework half-assed, but I always get things done. I plan for the procrastination, which apparently means I don't procrastinate... my roommate was getting aggrevated and quoted me as saying "oh man.... I don't know how I'm ever going to get this done, it needs to be in in three days." Point taken.

Ultimately, I think it comes down to the fact that I wake up early and get in that work before anyone else is up.

The only link I have for you today is wear truth.

This is my shelf that's out in the livingroom...G drew on it and A coloured it in.


(I don't know why I didn't take it head on...you get the idea)
There is a statement involved... what do you think it is?

This is me studying or doing an assignment or something. There is a spaceman hiding under the table.

Sleepers awoken from dreams of fury

The other day, I went to hand in two assignments (one was at least 3 days early!) and ran into a lot of people. I ran into an old high school friend of mine, who proceeded to tease me for not having exams - because apparently even though I did about the same, if not better than this person in high school in science and math courses, I'm suddenly dumb and not taking real courses now. That really pissed me off. I am not only learning things, I am learning them in a foreign language and I don't rub that in people's faces, unless push comes to shove.

I just looked over at this touristy calendar from Germany someone sent me, and it's in three languages, German and English (this seems obvious) and Chinese, though some of it appears to be in Japanese...oookay. Raise your hand if you're surprised..that's what I thought.
(it is confirmed that it is in fact in Japanese and Chinese, and the days actually say things along the lines of "fire day" and "day day")

WATCH THIS. If this won't make you smile, then I don't know what will.

These two photos are rather old, but I got nothing new to show.

sorry it's too bright

Classes are done for the semester. Supa.

I'm happy about taking off from here after exams, but home isn't where I want to be, though I don't know where I want to go however. I think I will scrap the plans to go to Chicago and another random city during reading week since a week in Chicago would be ridiculous and there isn't another city in the area and apparently the rest of the US within driving distance sucks. Instead, I think I will take that week to go to Vancouver, unless the other trip picks up momentum, in which case, Vancouver will be another weekend. This also depends on brother. That was so confusing.

I found a program for the future: "In the field of French language and linguistics, major areas of concentration include theoretical and applied linguistics through the following fields in particular: contrastive studies, sociolinguistics; lexicology; terminology, translation; semantics; pragmatics, text linguistics; computer assisted language learning and second language acquisition."
That would be amazing.

I feel like I need throw in something intellectual. So umm... After reading a bunch of French books, I've noticed something strange, the table of contents is in the back, followed by the index, etc. That wasn't intellectual at all, I apologize. In my search for intellect, I found the contrary, here is something to anger anyone, this and also here. I know that, I have a bias, but this makes it sounds like there was a country there before...But it is a lot more complicated than that. It makes me sick that people like this exist, let alone that this man runs a country.


Import socks. Festive.



As for the rest of life, things are better now, clearer and under control.

Sleepy Eyes make for great visions

This weekend was spent being secretly bummed out. Shh.. don't tell anyone. One highlight though included a surprise bottle of Fanta, if you've never had this and you're in the neighbourhood, come by and have some. It's super awesome. Also, I finally saw Eulogy. Not an amazingly spectacular movie, but funny.

There is this assignment I have and I chose to do an inner monologue of a girl. Her story is a sub-story in this other story and she has a pretty winding life and I don't know how to judge her. It's good venting because the more of it I write, the more I can relate to her. Is this turning into my own monologue? This (English / German) is the story by the way.

The people next door or downstairs or upstairs are really lucky I don't know where they are... otherwise they would have gotten a sock shoved in their mouth by now. Or two. No one needs to cheer indoors, I don't care. Maybe if you're a cheerleader, I guess, however they are not. They are howling and yelling at all times of the day and listening to obscenely loud things all the time to the point where my mattress vibrates accordingly.

Judging by the ranting of this, I am still pretty bummed and very borderline pissed. Not even the smiley soup is cheering up. I'm not sure what is going on, well I am quite sure about exactly what is going on. Though there are plans for the future now. Things have peaked my interest, but grades must go up or at least not down. Maybe with goal in mind, this can be done.

There has been a lot of talk, here is a picture of Friday morning, it continued to snow after this.

epiclys nerdis

You look like kind of like a vulcan.
That's not cool.
You just need that spiffy outfit.
Aren't vulcans are naked?
What?
Birds don't wear clothes.
What?
Birds..a vulcan is a bird.
I think you mean vulture.
Oh..what's a vulcan?
A species on Star Trek...damn we're nerds.

That was a lovely introduction...and leads to beat poetry. This guy kicks ass and here is his beat poetry. I like this about him. (thanks Inna &co.)

I changed this to my desktop wallpaper and gosh darnit, it cheered me right up.